I'm turning 17 tomorrow. It's my last day as a 16-year-old today. I remember a post I made a year ago before turning 16 (check it out) and it reflected such anticipaton, excitement, and naivity. I really wanted to be someone at 16. I wanted my life as a 16-year-old to be so cool. And it was.ü
Being 16 wasn't the happiest moment of my life. My life was complicated still. But what made it meaningful was the way I led my life. I didn't go through my days doing things because they were right. I did what I did because they made me feel good and happy. I have done a lot of really bad stuff (You, dear reader, may only know half of the story). I told myself that when I'm 16, I'll try things I've never done before just out of curiosity and for the heck of it. I did. It was ok. It wasn't very exciting but it was fun.
At 16, i stumbled and scratched myself. I have cried. I became slightly depressed. I became emo once again. I learned to shut people out and keep my heartaches to myself. Then I ended up not knowing who to trust. I was left unhappy and disappointed. I went through many things. I have hurt and been hurt. Well, I deserved to get hurt, anyway. It wasn't until the later months of my 16th year that I learned how to be truly happy. I learned to apply a simple life lesson at 16. How stupid is that? I wished I learned it earlier. But, now, I don't mind because I always tell myself that everything happens for a reason. If those awful things didn't happen, I wouldn't be where I am at this moment.
I'll be 17 in less than 24 hours and I feel sad to know that I have to leave my 16th year, a very memorable, beautiful, and bittersweet year. But, at least I'm leaving it as a whole person, complete and happy. I turned 16 and was quite disoriented and incomplete. I wanted to be happy. And thank God, I learned to be happy before I grew older. I learned that you could not find true happiness and love from someone else. You have to find it within yourself, the people around you are just there to share your love and happiness with.ü How simple can that lesson get?!
So, goodbye high school and goodbye sweet sixteen. Mwah!
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
3 comments:
pi berdei X!
Happy Birthday, Heidi!
I sympathize with the way you feel about your 16th year. Lots of shit happened to me too in the past year, that should probably be left in the past.
Still, 16 is behind us (well for you it is, my 17th is still in June). Anyways, I hope you'll head into college not making any decision you may find regrettable.
I'll see you when I see you.
belated happy bday :) haha, napancn ko nga, karaming happenings sa iyong 16th yr, expect more to come in the next years :)
Post a Comment