To the readers of my blog posts, you might have read my "Bye Bye, Sweet Sixteen" entry. If you didn't, read it. Well, now, I'll be saying goodbye to being seventeen in roughly four months. Ack! I'm turning 18 and I haven't killed anyone yet! Haha! Kidding, I may not go to jail (since juvenile prison does not exist here) but I'll be kicked out from UP Kong Mahal. So, no to the killing. But anyway, being 18 means more responsibilities, right? I could be a guardian, I'm finally an adult! Ain't that cool! Drinking would be legal! I can have a professional driver's license! Wow! But... I don't want to be 18 yet. I loved being 17, more that I loved being 16. As a 17-year-old, I wasn't emo. I wasn't caught up in heavy teenage drama. I was living the way every person should: light and easy, with no worries. Hakuna Matata! I went through the year happy and almost problem-free (almost since academics and jerks still exist in this era). I finally found true friends (charing. ang mga feeler diyan na may right maging feeler, ang inyuhang atay, bantaya). I finally had a taste of independence. I finally got to do everything I wanted to do. I enjoyed my eight months of seventeen-dom.
Well, I've got a few months left, might as well make the most of it. I still plan to do more crazy stuff. Heii, I'm still a kid, I have that right!
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Saturday, December 20, 2008
Friday, April 4, 2008
Bye Bye, Sweet Sixteen
I'm turning 17 tomorrow. It's my last day as a 16-year-old today. I remember a post I made a year ago before turning 16 (check it out) and it reflected such anticipaton, excitement, and naivity. I really wanted to be someone at 16. I wanted my life as a 16-year-old to be so cool. And it was.ü
Being 16 wasn't the happiest moment of my life. My life was complicated still. But what made it meaningful was the way I led my life. I didn't go through my days doing things because they were right. I did what I did because they made me feel good and happy. I have done a lot of really bad stuff (You, dear reader, may only know half of the story). I told myself that when I'm 16, I'll try things I've never done before just out of curiosity and for the heck of it. I did. It was ok. It wasn't very exciting but it was fun.
At 16, i stumbled and scratched myself. I have cried. I became slightly depressed. I became emo once again. I learned to shut people out and keep my heartaches to myself. Then I ended up not knowing who to trust. I was left unhappy and disappointed. I went through many things. I have hurt and been hurt. Well, I deserved to get hurt, anyway. It wasn't until the later months of my 16th year that I learned how to be truly happy. I learned to apply a simple life lesson at 16. How stupid is that? I wished I learned it earlier. But, now, I don't mind because I always tell myself that everything happens for a reason. If those awful things didn't happen, I wouldn't be where I am at this moment.
I'll be 17 in less than 24 hours and I feel sad to know that I have to leave my 16th year, a very memorable, beautiful, and bittersweet year. But, at least I'm leaving it as a whole person, complete and happy. I turned 16 and was quite disoriented and incomplete. I wanted to be happy. And thank God, I learned to be happy before I grew older. I learned that you could not find true happiness and love from someone else. You have to find it within yourself, the people around you are just there to share your love and happiness with.ü How simple can that lesson get?!
So, goodbye high school and goodbye sweet sixteen. Mwah!
Being 16 wasn't the happiest moment of my life. My life was complicated still. But what made it meaningful was the way I led my life. I didn't go through my days doing things because they were right. I did what I did because they made me feel good and happy. I have done a lot of really bad stuff (You, dear reader, may only know half of the story). I told myself that when I'm 16, I'll try things I've never done before just out of curiosity and for the heck of it. I did. It was ok. It wasn't very exciting but it was fun.
At 16, i stumbled and scratched myself. I have cried. I became slightly depressed. I became emo once again. I learned to shut people out and keep my heartaches to myself. Then I ended up not knowing who to trust. I was left unhappy and disappointed. I went through many things. I have hurt and been hurt. Well, I deserved to get hurt, anyway. It wasn't until the later months of my 16th year that I learned how to be truly happy. I learned to apply a simple life lesson at 16. How stupid is that? I wished I learned it earlier. But, now, I don't mind because I always tell myself that everything happens for a reason. If those awful things didn't happen, I wouldn't be where I am at this moment.
I'll be 17 in less than 24 hours and I feel sad to know that I have to leave my 16th year, a very memorable, beautiful, and bittersweet year. But, at least I'm leaving it as a whole person, complete and happy. I turned 16 and was quite disoriented and incomplete. I wanted to be happy. And thank God, I learned to be happy before I grew older. I learned that you could not find true happiness and love from someone else. You have to find it within yourself, the people around you are just there to share your love and happiness with.ü How simple can that lesson get?!
So, goodbye high school and goodbye sweet sixteen. Mwah!
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